I have put on 11 kilos in 4 months… Lucky me.
In the last couple of months running has begun much harder. Suddenly it became much harder to run up a hill or up a staircase. I couldn’t quite figure out what has happened to me. Yup, I have been running much less (only about 20-30k a week instead of 50-60k) but I have been running regularly.
All my trousers and t-shirts are much tighter and I’m not feeling great in my own body. Could it be connected?
And then it “clicked”…
I digged out a scale and stood on it… 79 kilos! I have managed to put on 11 kilos in 4 months!
No wonder that running has become so much harder.
No wonder I have been feeling more tired than before.
No wonder that all of my clothes are tight and I am feeling strange in my body.
What happened? I guess a mixture of things. But I mainly blame my head. I always do that, do you too?
Ever since November when the worry about my thyroid and possible cancer started (more about this HERE) my head wasn’t in the right place. In December I was advent running (it was brilliant, I loved it and wrote about it HERE), in January I was conquering the Dopey Challenge in Florida (you can have a read through HERE) but the “what if I have cancer” thought was in the back of my mind at all times. When I got back home to Prague after my adventures, I was waiting and preparing for my thyroid operation (read: eating a lot) and running around the doctors (read: eating some more). And then, a week before the op, I was recommended to a new doctor who called the operation off, for now. It is brilliant news but still no one really knows what is my thyroid doing and why it is doing what it is doing and how it actually effects in my body.
I am, same as loads of other people, terrible when it comes dealing with ambiguity and stress. What do I do when I am stressed and need to deal with uncertain things? I eat. The more chocolate is involved, the better. Of course. And I am sure I am not the only one.
I have also been told that my “hunger for chocolate” could be caused by the funky thyroid but who knows…
I had loads of running plans for this spring. One of them was that I will run Prague Marathon under 4 hours… Clearly, with the marathon being in May, this is not going to happen. I still can’t wait to run Prague Marathon but I will take my time running it and I will not care how long it takes me. And the “under 4 hours marathon” plan I will move till autumn. I have already started looking for “suitable” races in autumn. Any tips which autumn marathon is good fun?
Well, clearly, I should loose some weight. But since I always blame my head… I think I will start with my head. I need to zoom out from my “thyroid thing” and zoom in back to me… back to Babeta.
I have also started running with Karel again. Do you remember my running coach Karel? When I told him I put on 11 kilos in 4 months, he almost laughed his head off. He also told me that it will be gone in no time and that I should be looking forward to loads of slow long “fat eating” runs. So we shall see.
I also signed up for a morning yoga course, starting middle of May, because I need to get more flexible and more “tuned in” with my body.
And I promised myself to take more time to regenerate! Something I have always been rubbish at.
That’s the plan!
And why did I decide to write about this all? Because I know I’m not alone struggling with gaining weigh, overcoming unexpected health issues and not being “100% happy” all the time. This is the REAL life. Never perfect. Never as planned. Full of ambiguity. Full of surprises.
So if you are struggling with the same issues right now… you are NOT alone!
I have just finished a brilliant book by psychologist Elisabeth Kübler Ross who says, amongst loads of other stuff, that all things which happen to us, are not coincidences but blessings from which we can learn. This applies to BIG things (thinking that you may have cancer) but also to the little things (gaining 11 kilos in 4 months).
And I believe that, ultimately, the more obstacles we have to overcome, the more we grow and the “better” people we become.
Onwards and upwards.
Do you have similar experience/s?
How the heck did you loose the weight J ?
And what about you, stress and ambiguity. How do you manage?
P.S. If you were to read just one book in your life, then read The Tunnel and The Light from E. Kübler Ross!
P.P.S. If you see me eating biscuits and chocolate – tell me to stop!
P.P.P.S. Actually, if you see me eating biscuits and chocolate – run away because I could end up eating you too! J
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